Whatever you give your life to runs your life.
Stop focusing your time and energy on your weaknesses and what you are trying to resist, Instead of reach.
The more you focus on the bad, be it what may, the more you sabotage your own happiness.
Focus your energy on your strengths.
Any urge that has less time in your life, has less of you.
What you feed leads.
So feed you your future and starve your past.